Rc Lap Counter

This is a continuation of my questions night.it of another long but please read all it's important that I do not understand at all the guys.

my bf (4 years) and I got into a heated argument on Sunday and we almost broke. we had a rough few months b / c I'm having issues w / too stressed, tense, and cry too. I am in the board to help change this b / c I want to be a better person (and better person to my BF and my 3 little girls).

we had a counseling session scheduled for yesterday that I was afraid that the bond but did not. we had a good conversation. the therapist suggested we take a break from three weeks to see each other and only asking once a week. This is super hard for me b / c my bf and I were spending virtually all of our time (outside work and commissions that we've made some one) together. I agreed. my bf has been asked by the therapist in advance if he wanted to break or make the space and my bf said taking up space. we agreed that we do not want to date anyone else but my bf said he had obtained the number one girl (an older lady who is Japanese and does not speak much English) at work b / c she was fired and asked him to teach him to fly RC airplanes, he had built. He asked if everything was okay for this girl to come to his house so he can teach him, I said no and he understood (he said he did not want to be myself around other guys either). He asked me to pick up my cat after the session b / c she peed on the couch twice.

I came to get her and we ended up spending four hours talking. He said he loved me and wanted to get children and happily still with us, but we had to be happy. we could not fight more (outside normal couple fights) and I agreed. I promised to change and improve things. It initally wanted me to stay the night, but I said no b / c the therapist told us to space. he wanted to sleep with me but I said it would just make me more confused and had to be 100% sure he wanted to be with me and he told me he was it just scared that we will fight again. We both decided that I was coming home the best. as I was leaving, he held me tight and then dig my face and said "I love you with all my heart." and I'm gone.

but I'm weak and I'm back. We talked for two hours or more (operating and kissing) and he told me that I really should just go home bc / now his head is blurred and he needs time and space to bounce back . he says I need space for my own pleasure and health so that we may be allowed as a couple. He said he will miss me like crazy and the house feels empty w / out children and myself there.

When I arrived during the first time I brought our pictures in the house (he was in the garage with some of my other stuff). I hung one on the fridge and put two more in his room (on the dresser and bedside table). I left the other on the counter in the kitchen. when I came back the second time, he had returned to the Garge it scared me and upset. He says he does b / c, it didn't have the energy to hang them all back up and did not want to be scratched or damaged.

I came back today to have look at my car (it had problems). He took the tray of my daughter with her clothes and he moved the show to make its feeder mouse and a candle I gave him on it (they were on the floor before) and also I hung the paintings moved from the chamber of my other daughter on the walls, he said he did not like them in the living room and was being cleaned. the photos I had put in place were still there though.

I started crying and told him that I was mortally afraid that I'll slowly lose-that no matter how I tried to change, it would not be enough b / c I Hur .